the, 'why shd I bother putting a title post'

I guess there is some point in life where you will feel that, why do I always need to be the one taking the crap from others?!

 Where they use you as a sacrifice and shoot you down like in DOTA where they use huge ass guns ( they use guns in dota right?) and then laugh at your stupidity for sacrificing. 

Funny may not seem to be 'amusing' anymore. Instead it seems immature and absurd. For the love of me (cause im LOA), we are already 19 and soon to be out of our teens but all you guys can do is to use me as a source of entertainment? 

Clowning around may seem fine, but every time when I come online? Geez, don’t you get sick of picking on me? I give up arguing with you guys.  What’s the point of it? Yes my canto or Korean may not be as perfect as yours. Maybe you shd get a new best friend who’s a Korean or Hongkie since you love using those language. And me acting smart?  I wonder who’s the one that started talking like they are some pro in that language. Oh wait pardon me, maybe you have some Korean genes in you… so that’s why you seems to be so fluent and busy correcting every words?


If i continue chatting, you condemn my canto/korean spelling or somewhere along those shit. if not, 'im too busy for you guys'. right, thanks. 

 I was never on msn, or there when you need me right?

If our friendship could be quantify by the number of webcam-ing, im seriously speechless.

(to the rest) If you complained that I was never there, what about you? 

OR RATHER,

You should have a second thought if

I was ever given a chance to tell you how was my day?  To have a totally BS day and coming online to find a group of you ‘BFF’ shooting shits at you, really its just SUCH AN ENJOYMENT.

And that ridiculous daylight saving didn’t really help either. 3 hours ahead of you guys, and still I’m here trying to make an effort to be in the conversation where all you guys could do is pinpoint my mistake and lack of involvement.

And guess what, after all the bullshits being thrown down at you. They come back individually and asked,'since when are you such a bum who can’t take jokes?' and tell you not to be angry. Seriously, that is so old school. Attacking as a pack, then coming back individually.

at this point, im not sure if I shd be glad that you realised I'm actually hurt by your actions that you even bother to apologise. or just be like the rest who pretend nothing actually happened. 

which reminds me, there was one time when i was in SJBA and someone told me,  making fun of someone else is to cover up your insecurities, why do you have to make someone's life as miserable as yours? I remember telling this to one of the bestf, cause we used poke and condemn each other's life like it was some joke. It seems fun at that very moment, but underneath it all; there was burnt mark in the heart. Ever since I came here, I tried not to make fun at ridiculous stuff just for the fun of it, as i dont want you guys who are dearest to me to feel what i felt as irony it sounds. (with all the new environment and everything else)

I guess you can finally call me a bummer, cause you know what? (at this point you are suppose to say, ‘WHAT??  =.= ’)

IM TIRED OF BEING THE 'NICE' PERSON. (har har har, laugh all you want) In friendship or whatever. And this is not the first time it happens, each time I mentioned it you seems to be taking it as a joke.

I guess life is a series of joke after all.

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[ It seems total bs that im posting this here, considering that you might never see this. or that you may see this and our friendship may fall apart. either way, you know that i love you guys in some way, but for now everything seems to be suffocating me that I each time i was in that grp conversation, I think I would just sink deep into depression. dont worry, im already on my way to it. ]

FERRARI VS PEUGEOT

So yeah during Cheng Meng,  I have no idea why but I spotted millions of sport cars.

or the sport cars just have to show up in front of me, blehhh. 

and my cousin who is a mechanic to be- so i keep asking him what car is this, brand etc etc.

he's a mechanic mah so should know everything about cars righhhhhhtt?

spotted at my dad's elder sis graveyard. which i then mentioned to my cousin and yes, it was a ferrari! :) super proud cause i quite noob in recognising cars. i cant differentiate kancil and perodua something something.

and then i saw another sport car at my grandma's graveyard, and i franctically ok not franctically but kan cheong-ly pulled my cousin one side to take a look and wth its not a ferrari (which i keep insisting to my cousin IT IS) but apparently its a peugeot.

er so how to diff a peugeot and a ferrari, i find that those two symbols are alike leh!

 

this is the oh so ferrari

and i er photobucket-ed  peugeot and i found this,

WTH?!

ok, found!

wth both also the animal thingymajig sign both hind legs up! how to differentiate?!

and if you see it from far, all you can see is this a black dot. -___ -

and how dare my cousin make fun of me. all the way back from seremban to my hse he mimicked my stupid hoolah moolah face calling him over to see the 'ferrari' which was actually a peugeot. how would i know? I'M A GIRL OK!

and each time he sees a peugeot (which is super alot of times) he'll shout out FERRARI and turn my head over to see that ferrari/ peugeot. !@$$@#$! that annoying brat!

okay have to memorise this: peugeot, lion = fatter animal, facing right

ferrari =  sa mang kai/ thin horse facing left!

ferrari or peugeot who cares, all i need is a car that can move! and er not so champlang car good enough!

deepavali open hse

happie deepavali!!! deepavali= food!!!!
open house @ shanggar's hse.

behold ladies and gentlemen,this isn't the normal open hse u have always been to.this is more like the haunted open house....introducing our one and only organist:::

clement kam

as he sway us away with his eerie songs.his sifu checks on him once in a while..

sifu:: naresh

the black-eyed vampires entertaining themselves
excuse marcus with his excited face. he's new here.tsk.tsk. vampires are trained to show gloomy and desperate sleepy face.

ex: boonghee..

but

who can resist smilling when we are here(perasaan gila..rofl.)
eh.. clement i think u sudah sesat lah..

us. the threesome.



me and the vampire host.


awh. bf call ar? wth. wat about me?
omg. they are plotting to kill us.. .no. i'm too young to die.

and i sacrifice my wang leehom ticket to miss chongchinfong. maybe i'm not a big fan of him after all.. heheh. went shoppin at midvalley instead.=)

snatch thief.

for the first time...i witnessed a robbery case.well.. more like a snatch thief case la in midvalley. but.. its like whoa..

1)the bad guy took the wallet.
2) he RAN.. obviously la.
3) the father ran ofter his wallet.& the b.g of course.
4)ran passed my family..
5) the whole family of theirs started running.
6) de daddy caught the b.g.and hug..erm hold the b.g tight.
7) officers came and happy ending.
8) me continue eating.

(b.g=bad guy)

and it was like so obvious he was the culprit for the bad guy was like looking so so nervous and his mouth was quiverring.plus he run super-duper slow wei.and he stop a few times to look at the back. wth. must be first time doing this.
next up.. tips to be a good-b.g

* plan ur strategy properly. where to ran. and no matter wat just run. don't stop.
* knock everything that blocks u.don't say excuse me.
*when get caught.shout out...i have nothing to do with this.NO!NO!!! LET GO OF ME!! help..molester ar!!

okie. i know i'm seriously talking weird stuff here.. muahaha. anyway i got enough of shopping and going out. O.o my leg is dying here. 2days at 1u and then 2 at midvalley. my parents got attacked by shopping disease. =.=wth.

1u.hati malaya.

woke up late and rushed to get ready to go to 1u.me and chinfong.

i hate the way ppl stare at us like we are some kids running around naked and stuff. wth. do u think we enjoy walking in big groups attracting attention.and what???? oh yah. thank buddha pn.teo nv force us to wear pj shirts. we'll seriously die.

da big big group.

waiting for the stars to come. and thus we took pics. no time wasted...its smk usj 12 gals u r talkin bout man.=)

tada....(drums roll) introduce u to mr.naresh..

me and chin::omg!!! omg!!!look who came!!! omg!!!

others:: eyes open big2... who?? who??

me and chin:: its... NA...NAR..NARESH..

others:: wth.

me and chin:: omg . we seriously must take pic with u man. once in a life time u can come out wei.

and when i say once in a lifetime.well kind of. papa's boy..

The stars!!!

(l-r)the guy who act as abdul rahman, then the main actor..

us answering question from the stars. the actress from 2nd from the right. seriously made a very grand entrance.

on the way into the cinema.
xx:: eh.. why so few people only??
boom..bam..bann...(she fell)
us::owhhhh..
xx:: man, what a great entrance. (she got up)
us:: silents....
xx: aren't u gonna give me an applause for that??
us:: claps...xD
then she went on telling some funny and witty stuff that makes us laugh. i can't remember it though. blame my short-term memory lost genes. xD

notice the word "pengorusi"..and this 3 little sesat little girls. they called us and we told them to find us as we are near mph bookstore.. and they went in mph. so yeah. they were inside the mph and we were outside. look at they're thank-god-u-found-us-face..rofl.

we are twins. i am him.support my book.buy it.zufar and his beloved mouth.

omg. clement got popcorn kutu on his head. muahahah.. (actually clem, in case u are curious where it came from. it originate from szu's & my popcorn box =)

clement and kevin. apparently they say that kevin sneak into another movie. wth.

lastly... support my bee movie.. .wth..x)

dinasours..rawr..

eh..hem.. chinfong look wat i got u.. =)
dinosaurs!!! xD







for those of you who are curious.. my friend here.chongchinfong is kinda interested in dinos nowadays.. so yeah. i spotted some icons of dino and here it is...enjoy..

oh ya and here's one more for miss chong..

bah-kut-teh

i ate "bah-kut-teh" for two whole freaking meals...like omg.. and my first meal of it didn't even get a 24hours break to digest it..poor darling stomach..

went to times square... then hangout at petaling street.. and we ate dinner at..10.oo p.m.. my stomach was grumbling like no one's business..heheh..eventhough i ate late lunch..eh..hem and tea-time too..we ate bah-kut-teh of course..mind u.. pls say it as 'baaahhhh-kuutt-teehhh' try to curve your tongue when you say it.. with some accent in it.. (thought by my cousin.. by her kindergarden teacher..xD) it will ended up sounding like bahgutterr...

photos!!!

baby issac

and

a

group

of

P_S_RS

POSERS

and

baby isaac again..o.O

in action with his beloved thumb.

then.. less than 24 hours later.. the next morning,went back to seremban and i had lunch at bah-kut-teh restaurant.. bluek.. end up eating veggie and my parents ordered a pot of 'wine chicken' for me..(forgive me for my lack of knowledge in translating chinese..xD)

so yeah.. excuse me while i take a break. i'm so gonna puke. x.x

ouch..

i was in a study mood on tuesday night.. (9/10.07) so when i sleep at eleven,, i felt guilty for tomorrow is eg n add maths exam n i woke up again to study....



and then...



i step....



on.....



this....



and my big toe began to::

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oozing out blood.. like ohhhhmygggaaawd..(mind u.. its only a part of a tissue.. the whole tissue is covered with spots of blood o.O)



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woke my daddy out from his sleep... and it seems that he is more worried and anxious than me..



dd:: haiyo.. what did u do again..(keep tsk..tsk to himself)

me:: no la. i accidentally step on it ..dun worry.. nothing much la.(wiping my blood =/ )

dd:: ask u to tidy ur table before sleep.. ha.. things scattered everywhere.

me::exam ma.. (dad pulling sheets of tissue out..+ tsk tsk-ing)

dd::press your toe harder. let the blood ooze out..

me:: WHAT.disgusting le.o.O

dd:: tomorrow add math paper ar. ask u sleep earlier wat u doing?
haiz.u ar...i'll go get plaster n stuff.. wait here n press the blood out.

...........................................................................................................

moment passed..



me:: dee.. will i faint cause of lack of blood tomorrow? =D

dd:: =.= u wish la..

me:: i feel dizzy. i think i want to skip school tomorrow..

dd:: go and sleep now.no need to study last min la. no use wan la..

me.. =.= wat ever. nitez.

dd::haiz.. i still don't get what r u.........

me:: dee its ok. not pain la.goodnite..

dd:: exam tomorrow u.......

me:: not pain la..

so its like.. ok. buddha punishing me for studying last minute??? sob.. now my toe.. its like a big hole on it..the skin peeling off and stuff.. heheh.. but somehow i enjoy the big fuss by my dad..daddy's gal.. woot..xD

i'm so dead

.exams are coming and i seriously haven't started a single revisions
the problem???

i don't where to start from...T.T

seriously feel like crying and banging my head off the table.haiz.
its not like i don't want to study.. i just can't seem to get my brain to concentrate on one subject..

when i'm studying sejarah.. i'll think bout physics.. when i study physics i'll worry bout add math. then i'll try some add maths Q.

and this is the time i really feel like crying..

i just can't....do...
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not do.. i can do..
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but i don't know what method i'm using and end up
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my questions ..
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are
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always
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unsolved


and know this is bad.. =( u don't need cheer me up.. i know this is real bad..

p.s if i fail my add maths. its not only me to be blame. blame it on CLEMENT LOO ZHIN REN. the person who "can't" to have time to teach me add maths but ask me to hang out @ starbuck with him.

this is so RIDICULOUS.i hate the world.and i know the world hate me too.

murderer!!!

i can't help it.. i just have to kill...

those....

blood sucker insects...

omg. where all those mosquitoes come from.n y of all ppl they choose me?? why?? why?? why??

n to make thing worse. i have flu... running nose+headache=annoyed me
so sorry ppl if i had just ruin ur days by snapping n calling u names.. blame it on my flu.=)
my head is feeling so heavy n "goggy" ... gonna sleep 24/7
heheh.. skipping school tomorrow..
::bEe::