The Betrayer.

okay, since now i'm uber free. sigh, (insert the song i'm a loner by C.N Blue) i tell you people a story.

here's the kan cheong part of my post,

im sorta thinking if i should reveal some secrets of my past, since like im out of primary/secondary school and i want to de-stress myself! AND PEOPLE USUALLY WONT READ POST WITH LENGTHY WORDS. HEHEHE.

I am rather fickle minded, and er i have very short attention span which i dont think (but my friends thinks) it contributes------> to my love life.

LIKE FTW i am not fickle minded in my love life. -____- do you see me changing partners every two weeks?? NO RIGHT? (mom: NO, CAUSE U GOT NO PARTNER TO CHANGE)

damn zha tou....

i need to clear my 'nama baik' on this statement, i may be fickle minded etc but i am superb stubborn and loyal & soft hearted. WAH I KNOW, WHERE TO FIND A GIRL LIKE THIS.

ANYWAY, it was way back in the erm secondary school and

"Jeng Jeng Jeng"

i had a crush on a guy named Jacob ,from my Form 5 class.

siao meh! obviously that is not his real name lah, if it is his real name i'll die of :). smilling too much. Jacob as in the werewolf jacob, dumdedum.

Okay so lets assume Jacob is his real name, but me and my friends have the tendency to give nicknames to people. and thus, i named him Jerry.

And my FG4 (four girls gang not including one more close guy friend CLEMENT LOO but wtv, how to say FG4 +1 meh. so dont have the oomph )

(the four girls one boy gang.)

so we always refer to him as Jerry and we can talk about 'Jerry' eventhough he's right beside us!

example, bffs enters my class and..

they: eh so hows ur perkembangan with Jerry and u?

me: er so so. nothing much (then proceed to tell stories on anything that happen between us.)

them: eh please lah Jerry's body not tht hot also, why you like him.

me: *defensive mode on* wah not like ur ____ (insert name) that hot also right! at least mine can ___ (insert advantage point) and ______ (insert another advantage point) ... URS CAN MEH?

WAH SEE WE SO CHUNTED SMART!

(btw this is Bori - from korea, everyone say hi bori!

hahah we looks funny here. and in IB class they called him Boring wtbee so mean. ishhhh and he always nod his head when we say that...... er dont know if he knows whats happening. )

BACK TO STORY!

(and to those who knows me during secondary school-- no point guessing who is that because i moved class twice in Form 5! so hehehhe)

so before i continue, i would like to present the main actor/'chu kap yan' of my post today. No the main actor in this post is apparently not Jerry himself but one of my bestf, Zen. But dont be tricked by her name wei, she is not ZEN/ CALM at all!

This is Zen and her signature hippo pose

zen trying to cover my face. wtb -.-

me strangling her but she thinks im trying to rape her, another wtb-.-

see what i meant by the not so calm, zen?

Fast forward the time........................

it was like chor dont know what of CNY (hari keberapa CNY lol) so yeah we were invited to open hse and etc. As usual, we wld check out who is going. and the usual rsvp is:

1. if she's (bestf) going then im going

2. yer, why is he going? i dont want to go if he goes.

3. OMG, he's going arh? OKAY COMFIRM GO!

I was reacted, 'number 3' when i knew he was going. :)

and what was CNY without gambling after dinner. So we were at one of the bedroom on the bed gambling while once in a while some drunklords (yeah most of them were our friends) would come in and talk crap and then walk out........

and then......

and Jerry walks in.

(before i go any further, ill kindly remind you that Jerry IS 'JACOB'S FAKE NAME AND THAT NO ONE KNOWS WE REFERED JACOB AS JERRY)

okay, where was i?

oh yeah, he walked in....

and my bestest of the bestest friend THAM SZU SHEN OR KNOWN AS ZEN started yelling," JERRY!!!" and even pointed her fingers directly at him!

and we were all super shocked!

-______- if by now you still dont get it then ill cekik you. remember i said that Jerry was a fake/make up name for Jacob?? so obviously everyone was blur when that Zen shouted out JERRY INSTEAD OF JACOB!

cause in their minds, it must be like ftw,

WHO IS JERRY?

kan cheong...

ok ok, *scene resumes*

zen: JERRY! JERRY!

*points her stupid finger at Jerry/Jacob, which i felt like chopping off her fingers and strangling her at that very moment*

me: *defensive* he's JACOB lah! what jerry jerry. *i said it out super SLOW, LOUD AND CLEAR THAT HE'S NOT JERRY*

Jacob/ Jerry: *staring at us* with the -.-?? face (i feel like dying)

Zen: no He's jerry remember?! * wah this time feel like WWF, slammin her to the floor and elbowing her!

others non worth remembered friends (haha kidding): WHO'S JERRY?

Cf (other bestf) : Zen, you must be drunk.. JERRY . IS. NOT. HERE.

others non worth remembered friends again: WHO IS JERRY LAH? why did you call Jacob, Jerry?

WAH AT THIS MOMENT I WAS SUPER PISSED + SCARED + PISSED.

and then i found out that ZEN was indeed drunk, by drinking 1/3 can of SHANDY. 1/3 of SHANDY AND SHE'S ALREADY DRUNK. BUT THANK BUDDHA SHE'S ONLY A QUARTER DRUNK.

(see her stupid face, take proper picture also cannot.)

EH SERIOUSLY, WHO GETS DRUNK DRINKING 1/3 SHANDY? SHANDY LEH! NOT BEER!

How do i know that she's drunk?

1. she giggled like a 'shy little girl as if we just said- eh i saw ur panties' (haha okay my cousins always blushed when we say that

2. AND HER FACE WAS SUPERB RED

3. she admit that she was drunk. (this one super what the hell loh, drunk girl admit that she's drunk,..cant trust her statement.)

and also thankfully, Jerry was drunk too! MUAHAHAHAHAHA :D

*super relieved and smiled like a donkey*

after that we proceed to cover up her stupid mistake by saying JERRY is her crush wtf hahah from india or some place aiya dont care adi lah, and they met there and she is madly in love hahahhaha WITH JERRY and she thinks about him all the time/super inlove with him/ cant live without him. hahahah super hilarious

(-__- arghhh, at the same time still felt relieved but super mad. USE MY JERRY NAME WEI. ISH )

recap:

i remembered when she keep accussing that JERRY IS JACOB, the horror that Jacob wld know i secretly like him was not only shown on my face.

it was also shown on cf's face when she turn and i cld see her eyebrows started moving vividly haha asking 'omg now how? what to do?'

and also on PJ's face (not bff but he's old and wise thts why i told him about Jerry hahaha)- he too dropped his card (and it make a loud BAMN sound since the room is pindrop silence,--- everyone was thinking who is JERRY REMEMBER? ) ok lah, not that kua cheong... but he too stared at zen with that o.O *chun po zor* (sudah bocor) face.

okay so in the end, since everybody was partially drunk wtb and that some really believed our story= everything end well. *wipe sweats*

oh and few mins after that, i dont know why but weikit asked zen to slap him or something like that (they were both drunk) and zen really slapped him more than once. see? she's really drunk! and some others were on the floor laughing for no reason. -___- im scared of drunk people.

AND IMAGINE MY HORROR WHEN 2010 NEW YEAR EVE, Zen wanted to drink Vodka! 5% alcohol already talk crap, more than 5% i cant imagine what she would do.

arghhhhh.... how to be mad at ur Bestf who betrayed you when she was drunk, drunk by Shandy sa more?!

OKAY THE END OF STORY!

occasionally i do tought of Jerry/Jacob and this incident always pop out. :) sigh, but our relationship did not bloom out because he had to go somewhere far. and i cant tell if he is really interested in me because sometimes he acts so nonchalant, sometimes he treated me like his little sis ( bleh ) and sometimes like you know who :).

whatever, the moral of the story is:

BEFORE BRINGING YOUR FRIEND OUT (ES: BESTF), BETTER TEST IF SHE'S A GOOD DRINKER OR NOT!

wah super long post, eh go read this story twice ok! dont waste my effort to write this story!

2010 resolutions

okay.
seriously, i find that there is no point to do this.

but here am i typing these craps. arghhhhh why lar why? why am i so indecisive, and why do i always promise stuff that i dont like to do.

:( *sob sob, I'm just ubber nice, thats why :D

2010 RESOLUTIONS.

1. I SHALL HEREBY DECLARE, that i shall try to use less toothpaste.

yes, the toothpaste as in toothpaste, the white foamy thing where u insert into your mouth to apparently clean and get rids of all the germs. okay, here's one of my OCD. i brush my teeth then floss then brush again! dont ask why T__T. i find it rather stupid to do that too, but if i dont i feel rather uneasy. so aikz, just to have a peace of mind brush twice lor= use banyak toothpaste. and i just realised that toothpaste is freaking expansive.

2. sleep more on my left side. because the right side of my face is getting flatter, or so i think.

3. learn how to bake (properly) for my love ones.

4. shall not use stupid nicknames for *certain people* in my diary to the point where i dont recognise who is who.

yeah, i have a diary. and dont try ransacking my hse for it, cause i hide it in a very very very awesome place. anyway, does this few nicknames remind you of anyone? help to identify them if i told you before using this nicknames.

a) pendidikan jasmani.

wtf, sigh i know. who ever nicknamed a person pendidikan jasmani. i'm the smartest wohhhman in the world.

gender: i suspect its a male, aged 18 now. haha

b) rempah boy.

okay, i'll pass for this one. no clue at all.

i just wrote there: today, i met that rempah boy. and boy, he is cute.

and that happened, 2 years ago. fml, got cute guy but dont know who is he now.

c) house. as in i nicknamed someone by the drawing of a HOUSE. A FREAKING HOUSE.

oh gosh, how naive can i be? house? o.O

(yeah ):*peace sign )

thats to name a few, i have a lot more of UFOs in my diary. T__T i think i shall just use their real name in the future. or have a list of nicknames posted at the back of my book. heheh, we'll see.

5. To be more daring, voice out my opinions.

:( dont say im okay, when im not.

6. Be positive and more DECISIVE! (wah, this is super hard)

7. To take care of my suk-suk (mom's car) and not hurting it.

*stares to the future

8. For once in my lifetime, i should actually stick and fight for my goal in life. (will be reveal soon)

9. talk less, listen more. or just think before talking. but yet again, refer to no.5 :( how to be more daring if i have to think twice before voicing my opinions.

10. Be smarter than my BFs. (hehe, inside joke)

11. Not be afraid of the dark. wait, to be more precise... do not be afraid of what will happen in the dark.

12. to be who i am. and not afraid to be laugh at. yes, you can laugh all you want at me!

(oi i'm actually very sui hei and softhearted so please dont be so harsh on me)

13. *important* Spent more time with family and friends.

(isaac having fun with my bicycle pump & me closing the hole where the air comes out = he laughs like mad)

(and using my lap as his table T_T kena bully wei)

14. refer to no.13. Do not be a introvert @ party pooper!

15. To start a new life.

wth, number 15 is bullshit lar.!%*^*%#$! rephrase: to continue a new chapter of life. :D

okay, thats all for now. i can add it later on whenever i feel like it! what?! its year 2010 resolutions what, can be edited and add anytime. :D

THE TRUTH IS, IM ACTUALLY SCARED OF 2010. i'm not sure what will happen this year. there's no fix route for me to go, wherease in 2009, i know i'll be going to ICPU and i did not expect much from it. but yet, it is one of my most wonderful experience. From the friends i met, and especially my lecturers and ofcourse, friends from other courses aside ICPU you all had left a mark in my heart :)

but now, i dare not imagine what kind of hiccups will i face this year. heck, im not sure what uni or course i want to enter. no wait, i know what course i want, but only if that particular uni accepts me. :( BUT WHAT IF IT DOESNT? :(:(:(

2010, a year full of mysteries i shall say. and hopefully Buddha shall light the path for me :)

I shall be what i was meant to be, and hopefully it is what i wanted.

happy 2010

let's go party (2NE1)

IM BACK IM BACK IM BACK IM BACK IM BACK!

i tell you man, no internet for one week plus! bleuk.


came back from ipoh/penang last night around 9pm.
and off to usher 2010 with my bestfs (min, chin and zen). dropped by xueli house @ the bachelor & bachelorettes club, as zen's hse is at the same row. then spent the night , er morning of jan1 2010 at my house. :)

chat till 2am, then clement came to fetch them back to their respective houses and suprisingly he wanted to come back to my hse after fetching them home! to er, do some further chatting.
ngek ngek. chatted till 3-4am then off to bed.

so yeah, thats the way we usher 2010 into our lifes! oh and we countdown super loud in the middle of xueli's road, whearease her parents went to watch fireworks. cant believe all of us did not want to watch fireworks. Guess its because we're grown ups already
(or because we are single :( one of my fantasies is to watch fireworks with my ♥ )


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off to celebrate new year (again) with bfs. :) less than 10 hours we met each other, we are going to see each other again.

lots and lots to update! dont know which to do first. overall, the trip to penang was smashing awesome but then ipoh was so so only. maybe its because i just went there a month ago so its like dejavu.

till then, will be back soon to update!